Archive for January, 2002

More human than human

Thursday, January 31st, 2002

Dude, I may have stayed up until 5:30am doing my CIS homework last night (this morning?), but it was worth it because I have a better understanding of the material now. I’m just kinda tired now. I was very BLAH this morning, but now I’m better. Right now I have my tea–Earl Grey, hot–so it’s all good. My biggest worry for the week is now behind me, so all I have to worry about now is my Econ midterm tomorrow afternoon. I plan on studying for that after dinner tonight. Before and after rounds. Did I mention that starting tonight, I’m on duty every night through Sunday. Oy! The fun just never ends around here. I plan on spending most of the weekend sleeping, I think. I should also get a start on my math and CIS homework for next week, too. Sigh. Just when I get through one homework crisis, another comes along. This is going to continue all term!!! Perhaps it’s good for me. Building good study skills and all that. Back in middle school I used to have a math assignment due every day. I got so used to if after a while that after early 6th grade I never missed another math assignment in middle school. Perhaps this will be similar. A good pattern can help me a lot, I think.

I’m still determined to do better this term, and last night, thanks to Carl, I managed to finish the CIS assignment. There were several points where I was ready to throw in the towel, but I kept going, despite my fading vision and mental capacity as the night went on. I was very happy when I finished, and I’ll try to remember that good feeling for the future.

I think I should be more tired right now, but I don’t really feel tired. I’m wondering how long I’ll keep going before I crash? Staff meeting? Dinner? Probably when I’m trying to take notes for Econ, if I know me. Sigh. Maybe I’ll take a nap this afternoon.

Someday, I’ll get some free time and do that work on this site that I keep thinkin’ of doin’. I just can’t rationalize the time for it right now. I also wanna beat Final Fantasy IX soon, but I’m still working on Final Fantasy VII. I’m almost done with Disc 1! w00t! And before you call me a total loser, I have gotten through FFVII before, I just never got around to beating Sephiroth. I realized that I missed a lotta stuff while going through it, so I started over and then I got bored and put it aside. That was years ago. It’s time to try again, so I’m working through it, kickin’ ass right and left as I go! Yeah! Final Fantasy Badass!!

OK, I’m definately losing it now. Sleep dep rears its ugly head. girr…. zzzzzz….Chris out.

The CIS stalks at midnight…

Wednesday, January 30th, 2002

Blah. I swear, this major of mine will be the death of me someday. If anyone ever says to me “You like computers, so computer science must be easy for you”, I’m gonna laugh in their face. Then I will destroy them. This major is a lot of math, a lot of teachers with difficulty teaching, and a lot of pain and suffering. Now, I don’t wanna go on a rant here, but some of these teachers seem to put too much stake into the belief that students learn best when they figure things out for themselves. The problem as I see it is when the lectures have VERY LITTLE to do with the homework and tests the professors grade us on. I go to lecture, it seems to make sense at the time, but when it comes time to do the work, I can’t figure a lick of it out. I mean, what’s the point of lecture if they expect us to figure it all out on our own anyways? I mean, I can study a textbook at home without the expense of tuition and fees. Which brings me to another rant–how come my “fees” are almost as high as my tuition? Doesn’t the sort of defeat the purpose of a tuition freeze? I mean, the line on my statement that says “Tuition/Fees” is $934, however all the other misc fee lines total up to $578. Isn’t that the crappiest thing you’ve ever heard?? Now, that’s just my opinion, I could be wrong.

Tonight I have various things to do. If I have my way with CIS425, I’ll have that to do, because if I have my way, it won’t be due until sometime after today. We’ll see how that goes–I’m hopeful. Also, I need to help with a movie night tonight for my residents. They want to watch A Clockwork Orange, so I’m gonna make that happen for them. I need to grab the TV/VCR, the movie, and the pizza. ALSO, Wednesday night is when Christy drops by and we try to bang out a few more hours on Final Fantasy VII, so I have that to look forward to as well. I don’t have class tomorrow, so at least there’s that to give me time. Tomorrow, however, I’ve got a staff meeting and I’m on duty. I’m going to see if someone can hold the pager for me so I can go to dinner at home for a few hours. I haven’t seen mom since Matt’s birthday party a week and a half ago. =( There was something else going on tomorrow, too, but I don’t remember what it was… Oh yeah, I’m going to help some of my residents create a big poster in the PA office. I need to do that sometime after work and before the staff meeting. Sigh. So busy…

What’s goin’ on Friday? Other than class, I think it’s just me on duty. Oh yeah, and I have an Econ midterm. Would the fun just never stop?! Thank you! Chris out.

My world–it’s mine, ya hear!

Monday, January 28th, 2002

What a strange world we live in. Rather, what a strange world I live in. This day has been rather odd for me, and I’m gonna tell you exactly why.

Started off rather normally for a Monday, I suppose. Christy dropped by to have me fix a floppy disk (I was successful!), but other than that, pretty standard. Before I went off to math class, I got online and tried to set up an appointment to take the first midterm for Econ. Since this class is taught distance ed, we’re responsible for making our own test times at the testing centre. My problems began when I tried to register for a time, only to discover that all the slots before the deadline we FILLED! Oh no! I was like, shit, now I’m gonna fail my BACKUP class! With that on my mind, I went to math. Math was, like, *WHOOSH*, right over our heads and we were, like, “huh?” at the end and filled with dread because we have homework due tomorrow on that very subject that went “whoosh”. HOWEVER, at the end of the lecture, he decided we didn’t have enough time to cover the whole section, so he scratched it from the assignment due tomorrow and made it due next week. The entire class audiably sighed in unison at this point. We were SO relieved! I know I was! This was my first good news. I still had the Econ thing to worry about. On my way to the credit union I bumped into Wes, our faculty in residence here in Housing. As my luck would have it, he’s an Econ professor! I walked with him to go meet my Econ teacher, but alas, my guy has office hours in the morning and not in the afternoon when I went by. Drat! However, Wes said he’s an easy-going guy, so that gave me hope. I went to Programming Languages and that was a little less “whoosh”, but still I’m worried about the assignment due on Wednesday. Things got better after that lecture was over. At 17:00 I went and checked out Dylan’s show. Dylan is quite the artist and is currently (Jan 28-Feb 1) showing some of his work in the gallery in Lawrence Hall. That was cool. The best news today, however, came after dinner when one of my residents, Erin, told me that the deadline for the Econ midterm had been pushed back! That had now made my night! w00t! I still have to go do my math now, but I’m in much better spirits. Yay! Happy Chris!

Speaking of happy Chris, my birthday is TWO WEEKS from Tuesday! That’s February 12th, for all you people who don’t read this page often. =) In case you’re curious, I do have a wishlist, but mostly I need a posse of folks who are 21 to go bar-hopping with me and make sure I don’t kill myself Tuesday night. =D Don’t worry, mom and dad, I’ll be good! Seriously though, as most of you know, I’m very excited. Anyone wanna go to Vagas? Anyone wanna pay my way? 😉

There’s more that’s been goin’ on with me, but it’s mostly play-by-play stuff, and I don’t feel like writin’ about it right now. Chris out.

Java Jive

Wednesday, January 23rd, 2002

A song with this headline for a title just came up on Winamp, and it seemed usable to start off this rant. Why is it I can never seem to get a reasonable amount of sleep on a given night? I mean, last night worked out all right, but I’m still tired. Despite getting about 5 hours of sleep, I did manage to get all my math done (*YAY!*), however I didn’t get my programing languages homework done. HOWEVER, I did manage to get an extension on it, so I still have time to do it. *WHEW*

I’m in pretty good spirits at the moment. My homework worries have melted away just a tad, and that’s given me some room to breathe. I have some changes in mine for this web site, changes I plan on implementing just as soon as I get some time. =D First of all, I’m thinking of nixing the Forum in lieu of something more useful. As you of course know, I write a lot here in the news, and sometimes I wish I could hear what people have to say about it. I’m planning on setting up a feedback form of sorts, so keep tuned for that. Also, as you may have already noticed, I now have a web cam, so I’ll be playing with that as well. The link to what it sees (if it’s on) is right here, so give it a click. It’s currently set to update every 5 minutes.

Time for class. Chris out.

I should be doing math…

Monday, January 21st, 2002

…but I’m not. I’m trying, I really am! I just finished looking at the contents of the CD-ROM that came with the textbook, and BOY is it USELESS!! Oh well. One less thing to clutter up my studies, eh?

Anyways, the reason I’m leaving this quick note it to tell you that I currently have my web cam set up to automatically take a picture and upload it here every 5 minutes. I’ll have this up and running roughly whenever I feel like it, so if you’re feeling lucky, check it out!


Friday, January 18th, 2002

As I’ve mentioned earlier, I’ve got a new web cam, and it’s been very amusing. If you have a web cam and would like to contact me with it, get a program called Eyeball Chat. It’s like Instant Messanger for webcams, and their web site is if you wanna get it. It’s only a 2MB download and my screen name there is the same as my AIM screen name, Topher42. Strangely enough, it wasn’t already taken. =)

Anyways, uhh, not a lot to talk about. I’m taking a bunch of residents up to Corvallis tomorrow evening to go watch the UO/OSU basketball game, so that should be a lotta fun. I’ve already checked-out the van from the state motor pool, so we’re good to go. My only problem is that we may have more people who want to go than can fit in the van. I need more drivers for my hall!

What else?…. uhhh… Oh yeah, my brother Matt’s birthday is the 30th, but since he’s going back to Berkeley tomorrow, we’re celebrating tonight, so Happy Birthday, Matt! I think we’re just gonna be hangin’ out at the house tonight, but that should be fun. I’ll get on over there after I get done with my classes this evening.

OK, I think that’s enough rambling for a bit now. Take care. Chris out.

A zone all of my own

Wednesday, January 16th, 2002

I’m not really sure how I feel right now. It’s 2:40 and I should be going to bed soon. I have to get up at 10:00, so I shouldn’t still be awake. I’m not really tired, though. I think I’ll probably read some more of my novel when I get in bed.

I’ve got some various things going on, so I’ll elaborate why I feel a bit strange. I registered for Econ 201 (micro), so I’m not in danger of being dropped from the school or something now. I’m still determined to get into databases, but I’m not quite so desperate. The Econ class is distance ed (over the web), so it doesn’t mess with my schedule, so it’s a partial win for me. Things always work out somehow, so this one counts I guess. It’s not quite the term I had originally envisioned, but it’s something. I got my CIS 425 homework done tonight. Well, most of it anyway. The last problem’s a real bitch; even Carl said as much. I got the rest done, though. I didn’t get as much of my math as I would have liked, but I got enough I think and I turned that in today. The CIS gets turned in tomorrow. I’ve got work in the morning, and it looks like I’ll be teaching some web page development to a faculty member, so I have that to look forward to. The web is friendly and familiar, so it’s not a bad thing. Matt’s birthday party is this Friday, but I don’t really know what’s going on. I think dad’s planning on having a dinner or something for him on Thursday, too, so I’ll try to go over to that after staff meeting sometime. Friday, however, there had been talk of going paintballing. I’d like to do that. It’d be good to go out and do something physically exerting for a bit. It’s been a long time since I’ve been paintballing. If you don’t know what paintball is, basically we’re all armed with rifles that shoot soft little marble-sized balls with a paint-like substance inside. We’re then set loose in an arena where we play various games involving us shooting at each other. “US” in this case would probably be Matt, me, and Matt’s friends. It would be fun, but if we just end up hanging out at the house, that’ll be fun too. Saturday I’m going to try to take a bunch of my hall folks up to Corvallis to see the Ducks play the Beavers at basketball. That should be fun, too. It’s something the residents of my hall really want to do, so it would be great if I could make that happen. We’re getting things organized for that now.

That takes me to this weekend, but I’ve got other stuff coming up too. For instance, I have CIS 451 homework due on Wednesday of next week, however I’m not sure if I’ll even be in that class then. Also, at some point at the end of the month I need to go to the testing center to take a test for my econ class. There’s some other stuff I need to do next week, but I won’t get into all of it here. I just checked on something, and mom, that thing we discussed online should be occurring tomorrow, so it will occur in time. In that sentence didn’t make much sense, then chances are, YOU’RE NOT MOM! And if you are mom, then please email me for clarification. Where was I? Oh yeah, and some other things of a more personal nature became somewhat more painfully clear today, but again, I’m not going into it. If you really wanna know, do what I do and learn to live with disappointment. It’s not that bad; sometimes it just happens.

Well, this has been rather long-winded, but it was more for my benefit than for yours. It was helpful to sort out my thoughts a bit before I tried to lie down for some sleep. I probably should have mentioned that at the top of this rant. Oh well. Live and learn. I guess that’s all I really need to be focusing on. I’ll write some more fun stuff here later. I can tell you about dad’s ?33t machine and how cool it is. I’ll go into some techie details about my new webcam. Maybe I’ll even talk about video games or something, who knows! But for now, I’m not really up for it, and I don’t wanna break this great philosophical (for me) rant I have going here, so I’m just gonna up and end it here. Chris out.

Stress levels rising

Monday, January 14th, 2002

Hello, world–first, some news: I got a new web cam, and I’m working on setting up some kinda live cam thingy, but in the meantime I can just use it for pre-arranged one-on-one conversations and snapping cheesy shots of me at the computer. If I had a view out my window, I could point it at the world, but as it is, I’ve got a view of the roof of Carson Dining, so that doesn’t help much. I’ll keep you posted.

With regard to my stressers, let me describe. Firstly, I’ve got homework due this week. Nothing new there, but it’s still on my mind. Secondly, I’ve got to come up with some programs for my hall. Again, nothing new there either, and actually several ideas have come to me (literally) so far, so that shouldn’t be too bad either. The biggest worry on my mind right now is my CIS 451 databases class. Or rahter, it isn’t mine and that’s the problem. The final “add” deadline is this Wednesday and if I can’t add this class, my options aren’t happy. I’ve surveyed the available 15:00 classes to fill that slot, and basically, there aren’t any for me. I can see this situation turning out in various ways. Firstly and happily, I could be allowed into the class and everything would be great! Second option is that I don’t get into the class and I don’t take anything else to replace it. If this happens I’d be down to 8 credits and therefore no longer be classified as a full-time student for this term. If that happens, well, it’s bad for a variety of reasons ranging from employment to financial aid. Basically, not really an option. Third option is I don’t get into the class and I take something else. Seems the best way, right? Well, it’s actually very painful. See, my schedule as most of you know gets full pretty quickly, and by this point in the term it’s solidified pretty good. Finding a class for me that will fit in what available space will be hard. I can’t really take a high-level class outside my major because a) it’s hard and I don’t have the time to spend on a hard class that I don’t need to take and b) higher-level classes often require that you be a major in the department. I can’t find any lower-level classes at 15:00, so that leaves me taking a class at another time. Finding a class that doesn’t interfer with my work schedule will be ranging from hard to impossible. You can see why I’m stressed about this. So please, if you see me, don’t just say “take something else” because IT’S NOT THAT SIMPLE! Believe me, I know that’s an option, and I have looked into it, as you can see here. It’s just that it’s not the best option for me if I want to succeed at making my new goals of doing great in school this term. You can see why I’m so determined to get into CIS 451 now.

Alright, that’s enough from me. If I seem to have missed anything in that rant–and believe me, that was a rant–please let me know, but for God’s sake, don’t point out what I’m already well-aware of. It just leaves me feeling stressed.

I need food

Saturday, January 12th, 2002

Blah. It’s dinnertime. I’m over at dad’s right now and we’re waiting for dinner. We’ve been doin’ hardware stuff with Matt, Matt, Kimi, and Christy today; dad’s finally putting together a desktop PC. We’ve moved Matt’s computer to a new case and dad’s getting Matt’s old one. When dad get’s back with food we’re gonna finish putting dad’s new piecemeal machine together. It’s gonna be £33t, I promise you! It should be able to play Quake 3, and that says enough.

I gotta get some homework done this weekend, but that’s it for me. Not a whole lot else to mention right now, so I won’t. Take care, everyone! Chris out.

I am such a slacker

Friday, January 11th, 2002

Kelly would be the first to confirm my headline, however, she says that all the time. Anyways, the reason I say this is because it’s been nearly a week since I last wrote here. I guess that’s mostly because nothing hugely monumental’s happened to me recently, but still that’s no excuse. I started it a few times, but I never really had much to say. I started classes for winter term this week, and I guess I’m not really talking about that much because I’m worried I won’t get into one of my classes. The class is really full and I’m technically not registered for it. I wouldn’t worry so much about it, but I REALLY wanted to take this class, and although it is offered next term, it fits so well in my schedule this term while nothing else really does. I’m not giving up yet.

I had my first hall meeting for the term tonight, and it was good to see a lot of people again. We’ve got some great ideas for things to do this term, so I hope we can all have a lot of fun during the winter months. We’ve got ideas for a snow trip, a beach trip, a cave trip, paintballing, movies, etc… It’s gonna be cool, and d’you know why? Because I’m freakin’ DETERMINED this term, that’s why! HA! =P

Classes are looking like they’ll be hard, but good and interesting, so I’m hopeful for that. Work at the library is the same as always–OH! I just remembered! The FITT Center will be hiring a new tech or two soon, so talk to me if you’re interested and I can let you know more about it. Anyways, like I said, work’s going well. Been keepin’ busy enough to not update my website, at least. =)

Some New Year’s resolutions I’ve come up with so far:

  1. Do better in class!
    Most of you know this one already, since I’ve been goin’ on about it for a while now, but there it is.
  2. Improve responsible driving.
    Now before you all say “I told you so” all at once, yeah, I know my driving may be a tad fast on a rare occasion, but since I’ve been recently re-van certified for Housing, I may as well act the part of the responsible driver.
  3. Get my residents more active in Hall activities.
    Easier than it sounds? We’ll see. At the moment, I’m optimistic, remember.

Oh, and since I haven’t said this in a while, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO WRITE IN THE GUESTBOOK, even if you already have. It’s fun to get notes from people who come here for whatever reason. I’ve been considering renaming the guestbook to “visitor notes” or something to that effect to bring to mind a place where people can write multiple entries instead of just one. I’ve also been considering getting rid of the forum since very few people actually use it. Let me know what you think.

OK, I think that’s it for me. I’m gonna try to get to bed here soon, but not because I really need to. As you may already know, I don’t have to be anywhere until 14:00 tomorrow, so I can sleep a long, long time in the morning. However, I plan on going to bed soon because a) I may be coming down with a cold, b) I don’t feel like studying, and c) I’m reading a really good book (The Great Hunt, by Robert Jordan) right now and I want to get back to it again.

Take care, world, and please, leave me a note! Chris Out.